Friday, March 31, 2017

Sometime you can't!!!

Yes sometime you just can't!!! Can't speak, Can't weep, Can't leave.

Everyone gets angry.Everyone gets hyper. Everyone tensed. But when One person says that one hits you ,  scolds you out of anger and its not a big issue then you start thinking about your anger that made you even more silent and passive receptive of abuse.

I can't go back.I can't leave. I will move on .I have to. I know one day this journey will end.
And I will vanish.

Tuesday, March 28, 2017

Afraid or Defeated or Cautious

We are afraid of so many things. In-fact we are afraid of being afraid. Being afraid means you have something to loose. Something precious, valuable. Something concrete. And sometime , you are afraid of losing a FEELING. Yes.You feel afraid that you stop feeling in that way. That the feeling will stop stimulating your heart. And heart will stop pampering your brain.
Well, I am afraid that one day I will come to know or I already know that the strong feeling that I have one person who is mine as I have made him forget all the rival thoughts, will leave me . I often close my eyes and tell myself that its not like that.

His darting eyes while I speak is not the sign of his boredom but his style.
He does not talk about few things not for the pain that the certain names might cause but for the triviality of the memories.
He ................................................

I cannot be a watchman. I cannot be a prosecutor. I cannot be indifferent either.
I can only timidly guess or be afraid. 

Tuesday, March 14, 2017

A Second Hand Relation

Relations are Relations. Is it that simple ? No. Simply No!!!!!!!

Relations have categories to fit in. Which sort of categories? Well I am working on it. But at the start of my research/search , I have found at least  one type which can be known as

 " Second Hand relation" . 

I have also found(conceived) few characteristics:

A relation that you maintain with a person who has to be up to the mark to be in that relationship.
A relation that does not accept a person as a person is.
A relation that that is devoid of any shade of blind
A relation which can help you forget the old relations but cannot replace them. (spare part )
A relation that can be clutches but cannot be a lost limb.
A relation that is built on inequality.
A relation where memories override the living beings.