Tuesday, March 28, 2017

Afraid or Defeated or Cautious

We are afraid of so many things. In-fact we are afraid of being afraid. Being afraid means you have something to loose. Something precious, valuable. Something concrete. And sometime , you are afraid of losing a FEELING. Yes.You feel afraid that you stop feeling in that way. That the feeling will stop stimulating your heart. And heart will stop pampering your brain.
Well, I am afraid that one day I will come to know or I already know that the strong feeling that I have one person who is mine as I have made him forget all the rival thoughts, will leave me . I often close my eyes and tell myself that its not like that.

His darting eyes while I speak is not the sign of his boredom but his style.
He does not talk about few things not for the pain that the certain names might cause but for the triviality of the memories.
He ................................................

I cannot be a watchman. I cannot be a prosecutor. I cannot be indifferent either.
I can only timidly guess or be afraid. 

Tuesday, March 14, 2017

A Second Hand Relation

Relations are Relations. Is it that simple ? No. Simply No!!!!!!!

Relations have categories to fit in. Which sort of categories? Well I am working on it. But at the start of my research/search , I have found at least  one type which can be known as

 " Second Hand relation" . 

I have also found(conceived) few characteristics:

A relation that you maintain with a person who has to be up to the mark to be in that relationship.
A relation that does not accept a person as a person is.
A relation that that is devoid of any shade of blind
A relation which can help you forget the old relations but cannot replace them. (spare part )
A relation that can be clutches but cannot be a lost limb.
A relation that is built on inequality.
A relation where memories override the living beings.


Saturday, November 5, 2016

First They Came for

First they came for the Jews
and I did not speak out
because I was not a Jew.

Then they came for the Communists
and I did not speak out
because I was not a Communist.

Then they came for the trade unionists
and I did not speak out
because I was not a trade unionist.

Then they came for me
and there was no one left to speak out for me.

Monday, October 10, 2016

One 's Search

Many years back , one started one's search for love. One was not aware of the definition of love yet one had a craving and so one continued to search to find it.And after immense wondering, one found ONE that one decided to make one's someone special . One thought for a while that one has found true love. After some time, one felt that some shades of care were missing, one thought a LOVE without care would still be love unless honesty is there.Then one day one was betrayed. And then one thought that Love can still be celebrated unless the feeling of regret is not missing.And the moment came when one felt that lack of care and honesty was being celebrated without a bit of regret. And then  one came to know that love can not found it can only be bestowed by God.And God is still creating this phenomenon. Now One has given on the idea of finding love.Now one has decided that when love would come back to God, one will assist one's God in creating LOVE .So quit your search till one is busy with one's God.

Wednesday, March 2, 2016

I am a Daughter of Eve and Adam is my Father

I am the daughter of Eve. True.But I also inherits some quality of my father Adam. If I have been created to amuse or to care just as goes with the idea of Eve's creation, I can also demand to be amused and to be cared, a justified behavior that definitely owes to my father Adam 's genes. Adam who ,once, was in the need of companionship, to be heard, to be cared and to be loved.All these traits of Adam runs in my blood too. I look more like my mother Eve, but my nature has got enough shades of my father's genes . Why does everyone ignore my pro-Adam half, and just concentrate on Pro-eve qualities. Do the sons of Adam find my pro-Adam traits intimidating.Do they find a rival in me .If it is so ,then let it be. I am a blend of both Adam and eve.Those who want me to kill my inner Adam , I advice them to find their inner Eve,only then they claim to be true humans.

Tuesday, February 9, 2016

Full Stop

Let's place a full stop to an instinct of having dreams, making wishes and communicating complains.At the age of 30,let's accept the authority of life that I have been denying since long.Act of placing full stop just crushes the hope that more words might be coming to console the tired heart. A full stop may indicate an end of the phase of life, a chapter of history, the whole saga of humane race.Full stop is the personification of end.Let's accept the end .

Friday, December 4, 2015

Life is all about Oppositions

I am intrinsically a worried person. To get worried is one of the few tasks that I can perform efficiently. Despite being excessively worried most of the time, I manage to be happy .How Come? I guess, I often get worried just to enjoy when apparently negative things turn out to be positive .The smile that appears on your lips after much frowning, that smile feels. l like a real feast. So by getting worried just to be happy again is a good practice, and by living with oppositions, I keep myself fresh and when I would leave this world ,would leave it as an experienced being who has tasted each and every flavor of the life. ( Inspired by Freud’s theory of trauma about re-enactment of grief to relist afterwards happiness)