Heavenly Muse

The house we live in now a days is a rented one.We have been living here from the last 6 months. My husband arranged it right before our marriage.As he didn't know anyone in the city,it was easy for a innocent soul like him ;-) to be succumbed by prevailing cleverness.the land lord didn't tell him about the fault of the house at that time nor my Husband 's eyes could manage to see anything.Well in short the house was a totally ruin.I made it suitable for living. When i was decorating the drawing room,there was a corner that was really problematic for me.wall was not in good condition so i could not leave it deserted.And then i filled it with 1>a lamp 2>floral arrangement 3>a painting now its quite a nice slot. after having decorated it ,a thought came across my mind,three things are essential for decorating a life. 1>an enlightened mind (A lamp) 2>a heart of a artist ;soft and sensitive ( paint your own masterpiece ) ...

I found this image on Facebook and it made me speechless.

     I just come back from my father's home.Yes;my FATHER'S HOME. Sounds weird ,a home that has been mine from the last 26 years now it is related to me just because it is owned by my father. It happens all the time,with every girl /woman.(technically a married girl is a woman yet not ready to leave the title of girl) ). But now it happened to me and I experienced how it felt.The place was like before,dressing table,book shelf, cupboard,kitchen,etc etc etc.but my things were not there.dressing table missing the shades of lipstick i usually put on as it is in the use of my sister.Besides this i have brought all the stuff with me at he time of wedding.the book shelf was getting deserted day by day as during every visit i bring one or two with me. kitchen is not ion way I used to keep it.salt,chili powder,garam masalah, turmeric powder,every thing has changed its place.ma...

I couldn't write even single post coz my kitchen have been devouring the creative skills of newly wed bride-who is getting old day by day. But today I felt that this venture of getting married and furnishing a new home has snatched a considerable time so arooj gets back to old writing business. To create a piece of writing is much easier then pealing off garlic :)

I always feel that the extent of care and attention I have been showing towards other, I don’t get the same in return. Very bitter realization! But I started feeling this since the start of my socialization. My easy going attitude could not always earn the same response for me. Believe me, I could have been the victim of this bitter reality but then one day my teacher gave us a very good lecture regarding one’s true self. He says; Just imagine when you communicate or deal with someone, your personality represents letter ’’A’’. And other’s represents letter ‘’B’’.what ever you do, whatever you say, it comes under the qualities of ‘’A ‘and same is the case with the representative of ‘’B’’. The moment you starts behaving under influence of ‘’B’’, the’’ A’’ starts losing its identity. Supposed if B is not sincere and A also reduce the level of sincerity .This very attitude makes A to behave like B and eventually another B emerges on the ashes of A . So be yourself regardl...

Where is my knife? You know I can’t use any other thing for cutting these vegetables. My mother would shout like this whenever she could not be able to find an old knife (that more looked like a dagger) while working in kitchen.Infact that knife has a complete history. My mother used to say that that knife was a production of her grandfather (maternal) ‘s genius mind, when he was in Kenya .My mother would add more spice to her narration by saying that he used to build home with wood and live near a wild forest for gathering timber. During His stay, he made this knife for himself and then it handed down in mother 's family.My mother eventually had this Family monument. We got so amazed by listening this story as it was astonishing for us ‘’The journey of a knife from Kenya to Pakistan. Then my mother had another antique dresser ( a sort of) which has an embellished and emotional history. My mother was very dear to her grandfather (paternal).She spent her childhood in his company...

I am feeling so empty today as if I am having no control over anything happening around. Then following few lines seemed of doing a catharsis of my perplex condition. “ All my life I believed I knew something. But then one strange day came when I realized that I knew nothing, yes, I knew nothing. And so words became void of meaning. I have arrived too late at ultimate uncertainty . ” Ezra Pound

I often feel weary, at different times of day: sometime in the morning while leaving for work, during nights sleeping late night with worried concern of getting up early in the morning, sometimes during lunch having the same conventional ordinary stuff .Doing same things with a same pace at the time at the same place makes me more like old moldy machine .whenever this boredom starts getting on my nerves, someone whispered; wake up girl, break the ice, give a jerk to your routine by Resonating your forgotten relationship. Relationship??? Yes relations; Father, mother sister, Brother, wife, husband etc .Keep them alive by pushing a ‘’refresh’’ button once a week .share a cup of tea with your sister a telling her about an incident at office. Offer your helping hand to your mother in making dinner and while working at cutborad, tell her about your upcoming plans and add her goodwill to your enterprises. Give a tight hug to you younger brother for a mere reason that he is looking das...

We have had our house painted this week. Such hectic time it was. It seems colors are getting on our nerves. But it was necessary from the point of view of cleanliness and to somehow for aesthetic sense (if we had any).The choice of color for their respective rooms expressed personality of each of my family member .The color they chose for their rooms showed their inner intensities. For example, my father is a person who still likes the home decor of 70s and 80s.He never came out from the charisma of off white paint. Besides this, he wants everything in order in really smooth and straight manner so he has had all the walls of his room painted with a same color. After a great endeavor I forced him to give a little bit different shade to one corner so that it could break the monotony of the room My little brother is a great admirer of wrestling and Randy Orton. He like aggression in everything. His pompous personality can be read through the dark maroon painted walls of his room. A pe...

It is a general course of life that one keeps learning and changing one’s personality with the passage of time. Times changes, personality changes and so the behavior .I used to think that it would happen to me as well. And this natural embracing of mature ways of life keeps me safe from making same mistake again and again .It will bring gravity and sagacity to my personality and I would no longer be the same old bewildered Arooj who would want to express herself but then would hold her words aback with a wish that the listener might understand her silent pain. I still remember that after my fist week of school, my teacher said to me mother, ‘your daughter never weeps loudly, and she just sat and heaves sighs .that is something very uncommon in the children of this age. My mother did not believe as I was very bold child at home. Very confident and brave one. But it started happening in the later years of my childhood. I would speak alot,would share my bookish knowledge with...

Flood, diseases, inflation, unexpected problems, family issues, and study’s matter .My mind had been mingling with such kind of stuff from the last two months. The prevailing pain in my surrounding did not let me to turn on my PC .The reality was so bitter that that I could not find any words to flourish my blog. Sometimes facts make us dumb and miseries do not let us play with the idealistic world of abstract words. Though I am not directly the victim of flood, yet I can feel the causes, effects and aftermath situations. The insensitivity of human race not only snatched the essence of humanity but also invited the wrath of divine hand. Well……………………..I am here to say hello AFTER A LONG ABSENCE to those who felt my absence and even those who do not even know about my existence J .

A few days back i came to know that one my middle school class fellow just completed her MBBS.the girl who gave me this news was expecting a quite melancholic response from my side.The fact is that i myself felt a bit soreness in my throat after getting this apparently casual news.The girl who just passed her MBBS.(bachelor in medicine) used to be my best friend in 8th class.But this friendship lasted only for few months.i was outstanding in academic activities and co-curricular activities as well.one day she came to me and said;''Arooj why don't you leave first position for me in coming exam''.I got shocked and ;''why?''She said;''you are already famous for debated and other co-curricular activities to just allow me to show myself in this single field of studies so don't make good diagrams in the paper of science so that you wont get highest marks''.Well this single event created a long distance between us and both opted differen...

sometime in life we came across with dark night without even a single glimpse of moon and shimmering stars,still we believe that soon there will be a shiny day. sometimes in life there comes such a wildest autumn that all trees get deprived of leaves and trunk looks lifeless,still we believe there will be spring with chirping birds and colorful flowers. Sometimes we meet rude people uttering sour words with sarcastic tone ,still we believe there will be some sincere friendly will be waiting for us standing in the next stop. Sometimes sheer pain surround all whole body and legs seizes to move,still we believe that soon there will be an active current that make us move again. sometimes we lost all loved ones accidentally still we believe that there will be a miracle that brings some caring hands for us. Look such type of sometimes surround our whole life but a mere Strong believe keep us alive.

Good evening I am here with a day’s bulletin. 8 am .In the morning my ex-Wife called me and demanded her share in business we started together though she didn’t spend even a single penny while we were investing money now she is demanding fifty percent share. 9 am .My Boss called me and informed that I am not going to get increment this year. 10 am. My girl friend called me and said that she is going to wind up relationship with me. Reasons are still unknown. 11 am. My closest came to my place and that he cannot start joint business with me as his wife is not in the favor of this. 12 pm.My sisters called me that she needs 50 thousand dollar immediately otherwise she will never see my face. 1 pm.I fell from the stairs and got severe injury on my elbow. I had to postpone all, urgent important projects. 2 pm.My son returned from school with his shirt torn apart .He had a quarrel at school. 3pm.My neighbor rang the door bell and complainED that m...

If you are sitting in some waiting room and an annoyed personality (apparently without any specific reason to be) accompanied by forced elegancy, sits beside you. And if that very figure continue his/her stay with overwhelmingly delicate movements ,a slightly hostile frowing,and lips twisted in somehow grouchy as if just engulfed a bad ill-tasted candy ;then get sure you just come across by ‘ miss/mr Attitude’’. As per dictionary, one of the 9 possible meanings of this word attitude is : the behavior marked with a cool, cocky, defiant, or arrogant manner. When i pondered upon this definition it recalled me a number of people whom i can assign the title of Mr. and Miss. Attitude. Since the day I started observing society with a little bit mature eye, I keep on finding a number of figures that keep surrounded with an aura that their anger, their smile, their upsettness rather each and every move is observed by others .in case people made a great mistake of ignoring such angelic fi...

I usually don’t like sending or receiving forward messages. As per thinking ,it is one of useless thing one can ever do. Just to make sure that we are using our free package of sms ,we keep on sending jocks,qoutations and poetry to others. But few days back i read a forward message on my sister’s mobile (though it’s really bad to read others’ cell..ooops).and there was a message that i found close to my heart as it was about praying to God in a selfless manner. I just want to share this text with you people. I PRAY to God ‘’let all my friend be healthy and happy forever. God said: For four days only I said: Yes! Let them be every spring day, autumn day, summer day, and winter day. God said:’ No! Three days. I said: Yes! Yesterday, today and tomorrow. God said: NO! Two days. I said:’’bright day (daytime), Dark day (night time) God said: ‘No! One day’’ I said: Yes! God asked: Which day? I said: Everyday. God laughed and said: you really know how to negotia...