Heavenly Muse

Many years back , one started one's search for love. One was not aware of the definition of love yet one had a craving and so one continued to search to find it.And after immense wondering, one found ONE that one decided to make one's someone special . One thought for a while that one has found true love. After some time, one felt that some shades of care were missing, one thought a LOVE without care would still be love unless honesty is there.Then one day one was betrayed. And then one thought that Love can still be celebrated unless the feeling of regret is not missing.And the moment came when one felt that lack of care and honesty was being celebrated without a bit of regret. And then  one came to know that love can not found it can only be bestowed by God.And God is still creating this phenomenon. Now One has given on the idea of finding love.Now one has decided that when love would come back to God, one will assist one's God in creating LOVE .So quit your search till...

I am the daughter of Eve. True.But I also inherits some quality of my father Adam. If I have been created to amuse or to care just as goes with the idea of Eve's creation, I can also demand to be amused and to be cared, a justified behavior that definitely owes to my father Adam 's genes. Adam who ,once, was in the need of companionship, to be heard, to be cared and to be loved.All these traits of Adam runs in my blood too. I look more like my mother Eve, but my nature has got enough shades of my father's genes . Why does everyone ignore my pro-Adam half, and just concentrate on Pro-eve qualities. Do the sons of Adam find my pro-Adam traits intimidating.Do they find a rival in me .If it is so ,then let it be. I am a blend of both Adam and eve.Those who want me to kill my inner Adam , I advice them to find their inner Eve,only then they claim to be true humans.

Let's place a full stop to an instinct of having dreams, making wishes and communicating complains.At the age of 30,let's accept the authority of life that I have been denying since long.Act of placing full stop just crushes the hope that more words might be coming to console the tired heart. A full stop may indicate an end of the phase of life, a chapter of history, the whole saga of humane race.Full stop is the personification of end.Let's accept the end .

I am intrinsically a worried person. To get worried is one of the few tasks that I can perform efficiently. Despite being excessively worried most of the time, I manage to be happy .How Come? I guess, I often get worried just to enjoy when apparently negative things turn out to be positive .The smile that appears on your lips after much frowning, that smile feels. l like a real feast. So by getting worried just to be happy again is a good practice, and by living with oppositions, I keep myself fresh and when I would leave this world ,would leave it as an experienced being who has tasted each and every flavor of the life. ( Inspired by Freud’s theory of trauma about re-enactment of grief to relist afterwards happiness)

Forget the bad things happened in past and forgive the bad guy because you are damned to be good one. Move ahead.Focus on positive things and let the negative people go out of your life along with their negativity. Don’t turn around your face.I am not going to reiterate these old gold advices.I know it is not as simple as it reads ( sounds ). It is not easy to let go of bad memories,it is not easy to forgive those who has stolen your time , stigmatized your past with suffering and inflicted perpetual pain on  your present . Human mind has special channels to keep alive the memory of past pains and to keep remember the faces of inflictors. Then what one is supposed to do.How to move on?How to look forward.Lets play a trick.If you cannot forget then let's  punish someone by denying his/ her existence. This punishment does not usually do any harm to the wrong doers yet it can do you a favour. Place their faces in the background, make them stand in the place of those extras w...

When you write something ,you often do this with the intention of sharing with known or unknown ,wanted or unwanted readers.When i started writing my blogs,my goal was to earn readership.I liked when people visited my blog and read my posts.This wish to be read and admired by others made me conscious and bound my thoughts.then i stopped writing posts,people stopped visiting my place and blog's words became unheard stories. now i am taking advantage of this solitary less visited place.Whatever i would say here,none would listen,and even if someone would do ,he or she would not be even distantly related to me.I am sick of rude careless and selfish people.i am surrounded by few.And I don't know how to deal with them .I dont pray too often,I think a lot,usually negative things kept my mind occupied. things are not good  they are not doing fine. at least for now.

Every other day of life is drenched in multiple problems of various types and in various shades :electricity issues,WiFi not working,car 's mechanical work and health matters.Among all these preoccupations ,the emotional and sentimental blows triggered by distant and immediate relatives 's unexpected moves have their own severe impact. Many of times I feel like running away from this daily cruel business of mundane life. An urge to find out a place where an utmost certainty and peace could embrace me affectionately,often restricts me from performing daily tasks.But what would I be without these daily ups and down? These daily problems and my way of of tackling them defines my personality.Every other problem invokes a new spirit in me and I come up with readily conceived solution.My mind keeps on working along with other body parts ,and bring the gift of relief -no matter how temporary it is- to my throbbing heart. These daily challenges re...